Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Seeing

i had a professor in college chide me once, "misty, what are you waiting on? inspiration?" i was. a senior year english major taking 4 upper level lit/writing classes and a "directed inquiry" in the same field left me void of things to say. it was my job, but i constantly felt i had nothing.
sometimes blogging is the same way, which is why it's so important this time to stay true to myself and not set post requirements or feel always obligated to visit my favorite haunts (and i love visiting, it just eats time!). and yet, tonight i sat, wondering if i had anything to say. i mused that when things were so dark i often shared plenty, even if it was just a whispered "pray for me," and in just the looking, inspiration is everywhere.
it is the grace to be warm on this too-cold-for-texas night, the full belly and wonderingly normal blood-sugar readings. it is avery, all tucked in and quiet, and the tip-toes in to check on him before i go to sleep, or the breathing of shea or connor in my room when they finally succumb to their days' adventures turned into dreams. it is my beloved away for work, but the bond that stretches all that long way. the hollow in my bed, waiting for his return, the phone calls late into the night just to hear the other without kid-noises all around. it is last little one unknown yet Known fully, growing hair by hair, making presence known with secret kicks. grace is in the anticipation and hope for tomorrow, whether we have frozen waffles or the last of the Cheerios for breakfast.
there is tenderness in Creation, in the miracle of friend's 28-week delivery of twins, and the miracles being seen day in, night out for these two sweet girls. it is the announcement of a friend's engagement, and all the glowing love. it is the timing of a friend's phone call or the music that makes me close my eyes, the worship in car rides, and the breathy miracle of art. it is modern medicine and my long-waited for bravery to ask for help in tiny yellow pills, and the grace in four bodies holding me up all that time before, holding hands in thankfullness now.
to be uninspired is an extravagant snobbery, i think. there is today, and it is preciously full.


so i'm here, linking with emily, at first afraid i had nothing, and realizing i have everything.

15 comments:

suzannah {so much shouting, so much laughter} said...

preciously, abundantly full indeed:)

Ostriches Look Funny said...

AH! I NEEDED this.
To be uninspired IS extravagant snobbery. I must recite this to myself when I worry about having nothing to write.

Wandering On Purpose said...

Such a great reminder! Beautiful post on the blessings of the everyday, the big, the small and everything inbetween.

Brian Miller said...

smiles. for me it was not only a reminder of today butto recognize the many blessings that make it special...

Jodi said...

So much joy here. You inspire me

ELK said...

lovely moments of tenderness misty

alittlebitograce said...

i like your list. i'm so glad you shared it with us. :)

Sarah said...

Love this, Misty! I also have felt like I had little to write about, so it's good to remember the blessings, even if they're hard to articulate.

Bethany Ann said...

awesome. (and yes, it's "just life" for me these two weeks, though "just life" has consisted of my five-year-old emancipating from sicknesses. he recovers, and i see miracles, like you do. thanks for asking!)

Nancy said...

Extravagant snobbery. I'd have never thought of that. Well said. As usual, friend.

emily wierenga said...

to be uninspired is an extravagant snobbery, i think. there is today, and it is preciously full.

oh misty. this is one of my favorites of yours. you are so so right. there is grace in the looking. please keep sharing about the day-to-day. you share it so well.

Leslie said...

i love this. and those words just aren't enough.

thank you for sending me your loving words and thoughts...

Leslie said...

i love this. and those words just aren't enough.

thank you for sending me your loving words and thoughts...

Yolanda said...

I love this and you have such a gift.Thanks for sharing it.

deb said...

misty this is so beautiful.

you are.